Welcome Home ...

To Soldier's unit arriving home from Afghanistan after a long, hard year! They fought well and kept their heads high through every situation they were dealt with.

With all the excitement and happiness I have for all of Soldier's fellow brothers to finally be home .. I can't help but to also have a heavy heart.

One guy is not coming home. That one guy is not just anyone, it was Soldier's really good friend and brother. He not only deployed with him this time around but also his first deployment to Iraq. He looked after him when Soldier was faced with a near-death experience and has continued to always be by his side through his deployment.

How is it fair that we celebrate, show our pride and love as our brave soldier's come home .. And yet, his widow does not get that chance.

Soldier went to dinner with his widow and she is having a really rough time. She has yet to go through any of his stuff that was sent back from Afghanistan. She mentioned she wanted both of us to go over and to help her sort through everything and also said she wanted Soldier to take some of his things because she doesn't know what to do with them or can't look at them anymore without breaking down.

Can you say heartbreak? Jeez. Poor girl, what did she do to deserve this? Nothing.

It could have been anyone. I wish it wasn't him and yet I would never wish it upon anyone else.

No matter the heaviness I feel in my heart .. I still am overwhelmed with excitement and just pure happiness and relief that we have survived yet another deployment and that although we did lose a great person and soldier over there .. Soldier's friends and brothers are all coming home safe and sound to their families.

Soldier gained one hell of a guardian angel .. And without him up there, I might not have my Soldier here today.

Thank you, Eric.
For all you've done.
Keep looking after Soldier. Keep sending signs. I know Soldier loves that .. Plus I loved that little turtle in our backyard, bring him around again. :)

Miss you.
You are never forgotten.

Until next time ...

Link up ...

 

I miss California .. Plain and simple.

We head back for a visit at the end of this month. Soldier hasn't been home in almost two years now and it's been almost eight months for me.

Needless to say .. It is well overdue.

We are both giddy and anxious like it is Christmas time.

No matter where the Army sends us and where we call home .. California will always have our hearts.

Plus .. This song always reminds me of the OC. Soldier's girlfriend is Summer and my boyfriend is the ever so sexy and bad boy Volchok. :)

 

Until next time ...

Heavy Heart ...

So some may call me crazy .. Well maybe more than some, but I have a tab on my home page for the Casualties website for the Afghanistan and Iraq war. I honestly do not have a good enough reason to explain why I have it or let alone check it every day. Maybe it is because ever since our personal casualty that we experienced in our deployment, I feel the need or want to read, know, and memorialize those names that are updated almost every day. Those names that have given the ultimate sacrifice so I can continue to live my life and type this very blog.

Today, though, I have a heavier heart than usual after checking my weird daily habit .. There were five ISAF servicemembers that were taken from us due to a suicide bomber.

Soldier was almost taken from us by a suicide bomber. He actually should have been taken, but someone or a couple of people were looking out for him that day. Him along with his fellow brothers should not be here today, I would be living a completely different life than the one I am living.

It makes me realize how lucky I am. I never want to take for granted the life I am living .. With my Soldier and having him home safe and sound. It is not fair for those families to have to go through such heartbreak and grief. I wish so badly I could take away the pain and hurt. Those five servicemembers will forever be in my heart, forever in my thoughts, and they will never be forgotten. Along with the thousands of other servicemembers that have so bravely risked their lives for us .. And those thousands of servicemembers that continue each and every single day without any pause to risk their lives and make sure that me and everyone else still have their freedom.

This is for you. All of you. My heart is filled of pride, love, and eternal support.

Until next time ...

Double life ...

Do you ever feel like someone else got lucky enough to live your life ...

Yeah, I've felt that way for certain situations. Sucks.

I mean, don't get me wrong .. I am more than happy for that specific person, well I should be since it's the life I wish to have at that moment.

Moreso, I am happy for them because they do deserve it .. Well some people.

Anyways .. I feel that there are several certain people that are living different situations that I wish me and Soldier could be living. Maybe luck just is not on our side as of right now.

Everything happens for a reason .. Right? I am sure there is a reason why those people get lucky and Soldier and I are patiently waiting for our turn.

Bleh. Am I making any sense? I don't feel like getting into specifics because I have been told too many times that I am worrying over nothing and that when the time is right .. It will come.

I know, I know. I can't hear that enough, but sometimes that is just not what I want to hear.

I am not a patient person .. Well, actually I am since I have waited for Soldier for x amount of months while he plays kill the bad guys.

But, I am not a patient person when it comes to things that I want to be happening right now. I know things take time and they do not happen over night .. But god damn it .. I want it now! *stomps feet*

*Sigh* .. Just keep waiting, patiently. Feels like that is so common in my life. Not that it's a bad thing, just I think "patience" should be my life moto.

Good things come to those who wait .. And even better things to those who wait longer!

Apologies for the ramblings .. My mind is all over the place and I just had a need to get it written out rather than staying in there and causing more worry, stress, and impatientness. (If that is even a word)

Hopefully next blog makes more sense and is in a better mood.

Until next time ...

Knock ... Knock ...

Ohhh .... Why, Hello!

:(

I've been a baaaaad blogger. Shame on me.

Not too much going on here. Just haven't felt like writing lately.

Ever feel that way?

What makes you get back into it?

I love my blog, all my followers, and the fellow blogs I follow. I need and want to get back into writing.

Someone help. I need some motivation to get writing again.

Blah.

I do apologize. I do. More than you know.

I will do better. That's a promise!!!

Stick around, stay with me. I will write again soon. Maybe with some updates, but I am really not too sure where to start with the updates.

Until next time ...

Wordless Wednesday ...

Minus the words from the video

But you get the point .. Enjoy!



Happy Easter ...

Happy Easter my blogger family.

I do apologize so, so, SO much on how invisible I have been. I know I promised a juicy, gossipy, venting post but I just honestly haven't been in the mood to write .. Let alone vent. It will come. I promise you that.

Long story short (or in other words, just wait for another post) Soldier is home for good. Due to his incident back in January his Chain of Command, himself, and myself have all discussed and decided that since he was more injured than we thought it is better that he stays behind and gets the right medical treatment he needs. It is best for his health and our family and for once, he is being selfish and wanting to make sure he is 100% before we PCS in November.

Oh yes. Surprise! We are planning to PCS to Fort Campbell, Kentucky come November. I am so excited, it will be our first PCS as a family .. Since Bragg has been Soldier's home for four years and mine for two years .. And I am just ready to see and experience a new place. I hear it is beautiful there .. But also you hear the worst of it. I think every place has it's ups and downs and in the end it is what you make of it yourself.

There is/was only about three months left of this deployment so that also helped make the decision a little easier because it was only three months compared to like eight months left. It was very difficult for Soldier to make this decision, he didn't want to leave his fellow brothers behind but they all agreed and told him to stay back and even said themselves, "it is what they would do." So we feel very well about our decision, he still makes comments about wishing he went back .. Which is totally understandable but he knows he needs to make sure he is okay before risking any more injuries or even anything worse. Eeek. Don't want to think about that.

Uhm .. Also long story short, a part of Soldier was not wanting to go back because there was a bunch of bullshit/rumors/drama that had gone on with his old Platoon that cause a lot of fallouts and even an investigation on Soldier .. Which in our defense they all came out completely FALSE and the guy who made the rumors is a huge, complete asshole who was jealous of Soldier's promotion and just the general great soldier that he is.

Side note: If I ever see that asshole, you can beat he will get a swift kick in the balls .. If he even has any. But like I said, more on that later. Not too sure how in depth I will get, due to our own personal privacy, but the vent session will come out.

Which that leads me to where I was going to vent about judgmental people. I have lost a lot of Military wife friends due to that stupid investigation because people like to immediately think that someone is a horrible person .. When in fact some of the wives I have known the entire two years I have lived here, and Soldier has known and DEPLOYED with their husbands the past four years. So .. Uh .. If you believe some stupid rumors over facts that you have known for four years, then obviously YOU are not good people and we do not deserve you in our lives. I had a ton more to say but I am trying to recap on everything I've missed and am scattered brain.

So I apologize if this seems all over the world, because it is, and I am just trying to get caught up.

*Sigh*

Okay, next? School is almost over. Week and a half and I will finally be on Summer break. I am hoping to get a babysitting job to make some extra cash and hope to internship with the local police department to gain some experience on crime scenes and processing evidence. Wish me luck .. You know I will be updating you on that.

The boys were so incredibly excited to see Soldier. As was I, of course. I know I didn't blog about our "R&R" time but I will dedicate a blog post of some pictures and the video of the boys reuniting with their Daddy within the next week. Promise. It's so adorable. You will love it. I guarantee.

I haven't been able to run much, and I miss it. I did run a 5K about a week ago and my running partner and friend of mine did in fact beat our last 5K run. So what does that tell you about not running for three weeks then doing a little marathon. I was pretty damn proud of myself and definitly plan to get back into the swing of things. Soldier and I have been readjusting to our lives .. Especially since it was kind of just thrown at us .. But we are doing very well. It is so nice (yet an adjustment) not having the whole bed to myself. Definitly something I have missed and am cherishing every moment of.

I think I jinxed myself since I ordered my "Welcome Home" banner a little early, so I showed that to Soldier and he said it was very nice and thinks it turned out great. Maybe I'll save that for next deployment. Oh, Sarah. Too far ahead to think. A teeny, little part of me is sad that we won't be having another homecoming experience .. Just because the emotions and experience is something everyone should go through, at least once in their lives. That waiting and anticipation for x amount of months/days your loved one has been gone .. Then seeing them step off that plane or bus, march into where ever they have you wait, and see that handsome face on United States soil and only like 10 feet away from you is something that is undescribable. Please experience it. At least once. Luckily .. Wait, is it lucky? We have gone through a deployment before and have been able to experience a homecoming, and at that time we had gone 10 months without seeing each other, so it made it that more special.

But you deal with the cards your given and now we will be focusing our attention on doctor appointments .. Yayyyy *rolls eyes*. Soldier and I have had an awful experience with doctors and hospitals about two years ago. Another long story short .. He came home from deployment, misdiagnosed and we were sent on a unimaginable roller coaster ride .. Starting from brain tumor, "you only have six months to live", epilepsy all the way to "there are no signs of seizures, you were misdiagnosed." Boom. He was healthy again after being taken off all his insane medications. I hate doctors, I hate medications, I hate hospitals. Let's just leave it at that.

This time around we said first thing .. No guinea pig experiments, no zombie-like Soldier, no misdiagnosis, and no stupid doctors trying to make Soldier a test dummy. We are not going through that year long roller coaster again. Soldier doesn't want to, and I don't want to. It was so bad. Ugh, I hate even thinking about it. I wish I could have blogged through that experience, my readers would have been mind blown to have heard the things we were told and read the things we were experiencing. Definitly not the ideal first year of marriage .. But you grow with it and learn and all it did was make us, as a couple, so much stronger. In a way, I am grateful for it .. Uh, no. I'm not actually. I am just grateful he is healthy and will continue to become healthier.

I'm rambling. I guess I should blog about my blog title.

HAPPY EASTER everyone. I am not too religious, but please remember what Easter is all about.

Easter egg hunts, the Easter bunny, and of course .. CHOCOLATE!

Just kidding.

Cherish it with family and friends .. If you are celebrating this holiday with a loved one deployed, my thoughts are always with you, your family, and servicemember. I hope they continue to be safe, come home soon, and are able to call you on this holiday.

I am definitly going to make sure I blog more often. I have missed it so much and is my one scapegoat from this crazy world we live in. I hope everyone is doing well and I have missed you, terribly.

I am sure I have forgotten a ton of things, but if you lasted this long .. I give you a big high five and a swift pat on the back.

Until next time ...

Keep you on your toes ...

Again ... Just a check in blog post.

I feel like with the next blog I write might cause some judgement. Not so much from my followers but more of a like vent-blog of people that judge .. Also with a major load of updates. Just need to get some final answers and then a post will be in order.

Promise.

I haven't forgotten or left you loveys. I could never.

There's just so much fuckin' bullshit  and drama going on that I cannot wait to vent to ya'll. I need to get it off my chest so badly. It's just waiting to get out in words, then maybe I will feel better. I mean, I'm okay anyways. I just .. Hate people. Ya know? I don't know. I will explain everything soon.

Keep tight. Hope all is well.

Until next time ...

Checking in ...

Been MIA due to R&R .. If you couldn't tell from the last blog post.

Soldier is asleep on the recliner right next to me. He got his leave extended due to doctor appointments. He is okay. Just with the bombing incident that happened in January, he didn't receive the proper tests in Afghanistan so both him and his higher ups discussed and decided that it would be best for him to get those done here at the hospital on Bragg and receive results then head back once everything is clear. Which will be in about another week. So .. Yay on the fact that he is staying a tad bit longer. Boo on the fact that we have to deal with doctors and the hospital. I hate the hospital .. And given our past with the hospital, I am terrified.

I will save that story for another blog entry.

So apologies for being MIA .. But I am sure ya'll understand. So in that case .. I'm not sorry.

Updates and pictures will be coming soon. Be patient.

Until next time ...

Wordless Wednesday ...

Welcome home, Soldier.

We love and missed you.

XOXO

Wordless Wednesday (Somewhat) ...

8 Months apart from one another

Couple more hours until we're reunited

I love you, Soldier.

Cannot wait to SEE you.

It is long overdue.

Our turn. <3

Blog Award ...

Well .. Gee. I just received my first blog award :)



I can't thank Allison, from Our Piece of Paradise, enough. This really means a lot to me because I just started blogging a couple months ago and am slowly gaining some followers. It is nice to get out my thoughts, frustrations, sadness, or any other emotion I am feeling through writing .. And to have people want to read and, at times, comment back. It makes me feel all warm inside.

So not only a big thanks to Allison for this award .. But to everyone else following and enjoying my blog! It is greatly appreciated.

So here are the rules:

1. Thank and link back to the person that has given you this award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Award the blogs you feel deserve the award.
4. Contact these bloggers and let them know about the award.

Seven things about myself:
1. I hate pulling weeds. I refuse to do it.
2. I have a weakness for swedish fish and sour patch kids.
3. I am 3/4 Italian.
4. I studied Sign Language for two semesters. I miss it and want to become fluent in it.
5. I keep my inner teenager alive by watching Saved By The Bell every weekday morning.
6. I used to dance ballet for four years in high school. Miss it everyday.
7. I am a goof ball and I am more book-smart than street-smart. Just ask Soldier. I say some of the stupidest things .. But it makes him laugh, so it works out in the end.

Some of the blogs I love to follow and am always curious to see what is written next ...

The Adventures of Mr. Superman and Mrs. S.

&&

Waiting for the Welcome Home Marine

Now on to do my preparations for Soldier's R&R homecoming. Time to get all prettified and to get the dogs ready for all our reunions!

Until next time ...

Tomorrow, tomorrow ...

"I love ya .. Tomorrow. Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow .. They'll be sun"

I am so exhausted I am not sure how I am still so incredibly giddy. I have been cleaning for what feels like forever and the house is finally clean. Finally done. Well .. Until the boys reek havic tomorrow and mess it all up before Soldier gets home.

*Sigh* I did the best I could to keep it spotless. He will probably not even notice and just want to sleep immediately. I don't blame him. Poor guy, just called me and sounded like he was about to fall asleep right on the phone. Well he will be getting some much-needed sleep very, very soon! Eeeek. Too exciting.

Our turn is finally here. Fin-a-lly! I have waited eight months for this reunion. Although it is just R&R. It is still a reunion. A long time away from one another and it is going to be incredibly amazing to see and kiss and just never let him go for the entire two weeks I have him for. I know it will all be perfect in it's own little way.

I just wanted to write a little to let ya'll know I will most likely be MIA for the next 14/15 days while Soldier is home. But don't you even worry .. I will update with pictures and videos and everything once I am not busy.

I am hoping to capture the reunion with the boys and Soldier on video .. So be on the look out for that one! I think I am more excited for the reunion with the boys rather than my own .. Wait, a second. Noooo. I lied. Well, maybe not. I think it's a close tie. All I know is that I cannot wait to have him in my arms again. Wish me luck on getting a (semi) decent amount of sleep tonight .. If I can even fall asleep. Sheesh. Stupid anxious and giddy feelings. Well, they're not stupid. But .. You know what I mean!

Lots to look forward to! Take care everyone. Be back in a while.

Until next time ...

Meet me on Monday ...

So I am needing something to keep me occupied today unless I am just going to clean, clean, and you guessed it .. Clean some more!

Any day now! Eeeeek.

Just got a phone call from Soldier. Eeeek. I am so giddy right now. It is becoming that much more real. It is FINALLY almost our turn. So soon. So freakin' soon! Ahhhh.

Now to calm down, if that is even possible, and answer some fun questions.

Eeeek!!! :)

Go link up with Life As I Know It and answer some fun, get-to-know me questions!



Question One:
What jewelry do you wear 24/7?

Answer: My wedding ring of two years. Promise ring of three years. And a little Mexican bracelet that Soldier bought me on our pre-deployment cruise last June. I used to wear an anklet that he also bought me, but that broke .. But this little bracelet is holding on, and I am determined to make it last all deployment.

Question Two:
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?

Answer: Have to represent my Italian side and twirl it.

Question Three:
How many siblings do you have?

Answer: One sister, one half-brother, and one half-sister. (Don't really technically consider my half-sister as family. Long story. One that I probably will never tell.)

Question Four:
Were you named after anyone?

Answer: I don't believe so .. But, I was named Carly for the first day I was born. Then my Mother looked at me and said, "She does not look like a Carly." And changed my name to Sarah. I have insanely curly hair, I could not imagine growing up as Carly with the curly hair.

Question Five:
Coke or Pepsi?

Answer: Diet coke. Damn in-laws got me hooked.

Remembering ...

This week for link up .. I am making it as a dedication. Somewhat.

A dedication to those who have lost a loved one. Soldier. Marine. Brother. Sister. Niece. Best friend. Mother. Father. Grandparent. Childhood friend.

If you have lost someone and just wish you could talk to them again .. This song is for you. This week was a tad bit bittersweet for me.

Sunday. March 13, 2011 .. Marked seven years of my old high school friend's Mother's death. She passed from breast cancer and it was our freshmen year and our first experience with dealing with grief, and at such a young age. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. I can still feel her as I held her hand after she passed. Hugging my best friend (at the time) while she cried and cried. We both did. It is a day that no matter how often we talk or see each other .. The group of girls that used to be inseparable all come together no matter what and tell each other how much her Mother and all our friendships have meant to each other. I hate that it has to take that day to have us all reunite, but we know no matter what. We will always love one another. It's just that bond that never fades.

Monday. March 14, 2011 .. I don't know her personally, but I have followed her blog and facebook as she has been going through this struggle. It marked the one year of Mrs. P's beloved husband that gave the ultimate sacrifice this time last year in Afghanistan. Like I said, although I didn't know her. I had a very heavy heart for her on that day. It was all I thought about all day and just hoped that she continues to have strength and her husband, her Marine will always be in my thoughts.

So, I decided that this song seemed appropriate for this week's link up. It's for those that wish you could get into contact again with your lost loved ones. Never give up strength, they are always with you. In each step and each breathe that you take. They are with you and watching over you.

Go link up with Goodnight Moon and share your favorite emotion this week.

Until next time ...

La-te-da ...

Will write soon.

Oh boy do I have loads to update you with.

Just wait. I have a vent session headed your way. Just not in the writing mood to tell it right now. Ya know what I mean? I've talked it out to death so I am giving myself a rest and will write about it by this weekend. Promise.

I am sure I will come off selfish when I do vent about it. But hey, I have some rights here too. Just wait. I need to get annoyed by it again, right now I am just trying to block it out and think happy, happy thoughts about R&R. Oh .... Positive thoughts.

Ugh.
Write soon.
Promise!

Until next time ...

A Military Wife in the Army of One ...

You aren’t issued with the uniform, boots and weapon,
But you are one lady no one should step on.
It usually goes “With this ring, I thee wed,”
But add in “Even if it means me in an empty bed.”
“and the weeks in the field with many late nights,”
“which will at some point lead to fights.”
Yes, a military wife is courageous and strong,
Even when the days seem so long.
When you feel like you’re at your wits end,
You “Suck it up” and start to mend.
You learn the Army language,
All those acronyms, “How can I manage.”
PX, AAFES, LES, MOS - the list goes on and on,
All those letters would make an ordinary woman yawn.
But those letters are part of your life,
The life of a proud military wife.
You move too much and decorate too little,
Because you always seem to leave in the middle.
Don’t get too settled and make lots of friends
Because home is wherever the Army sends.
And then one day the orders come down,
Your husband soon will be leaving town.
“Up to 365 days or until mission complete”
You know your heart just skipped a beat.
You stare at the orders in front of you,
This was a possibility you always knew.
Now life takes on new meaning
And the tears start streaming.
You hug each other tight and kiss farewell,
How you feel, words could never tell.
You go back to an empty home,
And try not to sit by the phone.
You wait, wonder and worry,
And hope this year goes by in a hurry.
Things are different now.
You’ll do things you once did not know how.
Yellow ribbons are a new accessory,
You make your outfit match- it is a necessity
You cry when the National Anthem is played,
And you get your child that much needed band-aid.
You have your daily chores, as always,
Except now you’re the only one to sweep the hallways.
You’re “IT”- the only one
But you do it and try to have fun.
You say your prayers and wish on a star in the sky,
When he’s back in your arms, you’ll forget the year that went by.
And you’ll think how strong you had become,
When you were truly the army of “one.”

~Letisha E Wheeler October 16, 2005~

How are YOU feeling this week ...

It's link up time .. Head on over to Goodnight Moon and link up your song. Your feeling. Whatever is on your mind this past week, put it out there in song. What better way. Ya know. It expresses everything and makes you feel better. At least it does for me.

I look forward to every Thursday now because I love putting out the songs that touch my heart .. And have helped me through deployments and all the rough times they bring. Also, between you and I, every Thursday is just one Thursday closer to our R&R and his homecoming. Which in turn, means him coming home safe! So .. I love these link ups very much.

This week, I am not sure how to express what this song means to me. It just has been on replay my entire week .. Almost month. I first heard this song on my Pandora, and of course liked it immediately. It came on again and again each time I turned my Pandora on. If you really listen to the lyrics, it is a sad one. It is about a Soldier just wanting to come home, to see his wife and kids .. And when he returns he realizes that he has come "home" but not the way they wanted or expected.

It hits home.

So, it popped into my head the other week and I just REALLY wanted to listen to it. I forgot the name and artist of it, go figure, and had no way of tracking it on my Pandora. So I googled and googled as much as I could remember or as many phrases I could remember to find it. Well, tough luck. Google failed me. I decided to just turn on my Pandora in hopes that it will pop up. What luck right. Well after two days .. It finally came up again. I skipped with joy. I immediately bookmarked it so I could never forget it again and then put my palm to my face to think how lame I was to not remember this song. Duur, Sarah. Come on. Sheesh.

So here it is. My song of the week. It has been my anthem, on replay all week, and I want to share it with ya'll. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. It is soothing and something you can just sit and relax to. It makes your mind wander and venture off to the unknown. Let's you sink into your fears or worries and make you realize how thankful and lucky you are to know he is okay and he WILL be coming home to you.

I love the sad songs that end up making you that much more thankful. We are truly lucky. We need to embrace that .. And never forget that.

Enjoy ...

Until next time ...

Help ...

I am wanting a new header for my blog ... But have no idea how to make one or find a good website to where I can create one.

Help a girl out?

Any ideas or links?

Or perhaps .. Anyone want to make me one :)

Heart ache ...

My heart aches for you ... But I can't cry.

I am torturing myself and doing what I usually do when I am depressed and play my sad deployment songs, look through old photographs and play the video I made of us.

No tears.

I go through phases. One month I can cry a freakin' river .. The next I am dried out. Maybe I am not meant to cry. I am not meant to be sad. R&R is so freakin' soon. Why cry? Why be sad? There is no reason to be. We have our reunion so soon. Our turn is almost here. What the hell, Sarah. Cheer the eff' up. It should be all smiles and giddyness rather than depressing songs and trying to cry. What's the deal.

It has been eight months since I have felt your touch. Felt your kiss, felt your arms around me, felt that drop of my heart each and every time I look into your gorgeous blue eyes and fall even more deeply in love with you. Can I have that? Tomorrow? Please. I am begging for it. It's all I want, all I daydream about. I can't sleep. I sit on the couch with the boys and just lay there. Dreaming of our reunion in that airport. Will I run to you? Or just walk. Jump and wrap my legs around you .. Hold on to you and just never ever let go.

My heart hurts.

You know that feeling? Where it just honestly aches. It longs for just that feeling. I will take a simple hand hold. Let me wrap my arm around your arm, walk right next to each other. I don't care. I want anything. A kiss on the forehead. On the cheek.

I want to feel you again.

There have been too many close calls. I need that reassurance that you are okay. That you will be home to me. Safe and sound. That this deployment is just like the last. That we will get through it. It's only R&R. Not the end. Not quite yet. But having you home for those two weeks .. Means that you are safe and sound.

It's been tough baby. This deployment has just tried to tear us both down. You know it as well. I am staying as strong as I can be. I stay strong for you. You keep me going .. Each and every day. I couldn't do it without your strength. Your courage. Your love. It's what makes me know that tomorrow is another day .. Another day closer to our reunion. I have no doubt. I have all the faith in the world in you that you will keep your promises to me.

No doubt at all.

I just .. Miss you.
That's all.

The nights are always the hardest. Tomorrow will be a new day. One day closer.

I'm going to go cuddle with our boys now .. Until you're home again to be my snoogle partner.

I love you.
Forever.
Keep your promises.
Keep safe and hurry home, Soldier.

"I won't make a promise I know I can't keep"

Forever yours.
I will always be with you.
Always.

Until next time ...

Meh ...

Haven't been in the mood to write lately. Not sure what the deal is, but it shall pass. Just like everything else that stumbles upon me and switches up my moods. I promised I would write about Colorado and so here it is.

It was so nice getting away from this Military town and although we were about a half hour away from Fort Carson .. It didn't feel or even look like a Military town, let alone what Bragg looks like. It was a nice breath of fresh air. We hung out, relaxed, went out to dinner, drank too much wine, vented, cried, laughed .. Did it all. It was exactly what I needed before our R&R reunion in a couple of weeks. It was so great to see my friend. It had been almost two years since we last saw each other and it was like no time had passed. We picked up right where we had left off and grew even more closer within the five days I was there. I can truly call her one of my best friends. And not just a "Military wife" friend. She is genuine, real, down-to-earth, and an all around amazing person who gets me. I couldn't ask for a better mini-vacation. I am already planning and anxiously waiting for the next time we are together. I miss you, Lauren. So much already .. Oh and Hankie. Such a cuddle monster.

Here are a few pictures from my trip. I have a ton but I figure I will post the good ones.

Fort Carson. Home of the 4th Infantry Division

Broadmoor. Homes that are ridiculously expensive but amazingly gorgeous

Medicinal Marijuana is legal and some of the stores names were hilarious.

Some others: Dr. Reefer's. THC (The Healthy Connection). Pipe's Peak (Instead of Pike's Peak)

Air Force Academy -- Falcon Stadium

A true Hero. Survived both World Wars.

Rest in Peace

Infront of Garden of the Gods

Our view from the house of Pike's Peak

Breathtaking

My friend, Lauren, and I climbing The Incline

Definitly an accomplishment

Stairway to heaven

So close, yet felt like so far away

Hopefully I will be more in the mood to write this coming week. We have Spring Break this week. Whoop-de-doo. Nothing planned other than working out and starting to get the house ready for R&R time. It is starting to get really nice outside, thank goodness. This snow queen is ready for some Spring weather. Not too sure I am ready for the North Carolina Summer humidity, but some Spring weather will be a nice change.

Just make sure to keep it Winter time in Afghanistan. I know Spring is coming and the fight just gets more active in the warmer temperatures. We don't need anymore close calls or incidents. Oh .. Yeah. IED incident with Soldier. Awesome. He's fine. So are his guys. Just .. Really? Another incident within in a month. Afghanistan is trying to give me a heart attack. Grrr. You won't win. R&R is so soon. Keep staying strong baby. Keep your promises and hurry home, safe and sound, to the boys and I. We are always patiently waiting. I love you. Forever and always.

I will always be with you.

Until next time ...



Link, link, link it up ...

Head over to Goodnight Moon and link up your "feeling" this week.

Take a moment. Think it over. What are you truly feeling this week. Express it. And what better way than through music. Awh, I love music. Does the body good.

Soldier and I's song. One of many. Well not really, but we always dance and have fun to this song. I posted some of the lyrics to his Facebook wall a long time ago and when I woke up the next morning I found notifcations in my email saying how perverted we are.

Hmm, who would have thought that the lyrics "you spin my head right round, right round .. When you go down .. When you go down, down" was sexual? Get your mind out of the gutters.

Tee-hee.

;)

I know, I know. I need to update. This weekend. Promise.

Until next time ...